Precious Baby Alanna Phoebe: release of balloon

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Wednesday, 17 October 2012

Capture Your Grief, Day 16 & 17: Release & Anniversary/Birthday/Due Dates

Day 16 and 17 of Capture Your Grief wants us to share a photo of any release of balloons, lanterns, butterflies, doves and what we did for our baby's special day. I lost my Alanna August 19th, so on her 1-month birthday which was on Sept 19th, we released balloons for her. We bought flowers and lit candle for her. We just went to a Chinese restaurant for dinner with close family.

No special Anniversary and my Due date is still coming up next month, which I thought is sad knowing that her one-month birthday has pass and my due date is still coming up in a few weeks. Made me think that I'm suppose to be still pregnant today but here I am writing a blog, remembering and thinking what did I do wrong, and still hopes to wake up from this very bad dream. *sigh*

I have posted pictures of that day on my previous blog under Happy One Month Birthday to You or simply click Balloon pictures below for more pictures and details.

Wednesday, 19 September 2012

Happy One Month Birthday to You

September 19th, 2012-- Time Flies. You would have been one-month-old today. I remembered your brothers and sister's one-month-old birthday, we always celebrate it just at home(just us and sometimes very close family) and I always ask Daddy before coming home to buy a special cake so we can take lots of pictures and pretend each one blows their candle.

These past few days, I have not been sleeping properly thinking about what to do on this day. I didn't know how to celebrate your one-month-old birthday. I want it to be special for you even if you are not here with us. I decided not to have any cake but this time to release balloons for you, maybe that way those balloons will reach you and you have something to play with. (How I wish your brothers and sister can play with you instead.) We also decided to eat outside instead of staying home. Maybe that way, I wouldn't be thinking of losing you that much.

So today, before Daddy came home I text him to get you balloons and flowers. We released three balloons, one from your big brother 'Kuya' KC, the other is from your big sister 'Ate' Ava, and the last one from your 'Kulet' brother Diezel. (You probably have received them by now so I hope that you liked them.) I know Daddy bought 5 balloons and a princess pink balloon, but your brother popped one and so we've decided to keep one balloon and pink one-- your brother was crying for them. He did not want to let go of the balloon he was holding but I had to explain to him that it is for you, his "ading" so eventually he did let it go. He even said 'I love you ading! bye!' (I had to hold my tears because he is too young but he always mention your name--His 'ading') I'm sure you were watching us from above. I still wish things were different but I guess you are meant to be there than with us. I love you and miss you Alanna.

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