Kenley's Empty Arms Project

(In memory of Rachael's daughter, Kenley Faith-- family's tiny princess)

Rachael hand out bears to the local hospitals & Doctors' office in Montana where she lives. She do open up requests to a set number of moms one day a month. Visit their Facebook page to read about what she does. ❤

I requested this bear when she was moving. I was not expecting it to come to me so early as I know how busy it is for someone to be moving but hey! I got my bear and I love it!

Thank you Rachael from Kenley's Empty Arms Project [K.E.A.P] for sending my family this bear. Like what you said on your FBpage, it did reminded me of  "the pain of leaving the hospital with nothing but empty arms and a broken heart". I am really, really thankful though for what you've sent me. 

I showed it to my children and my daughter hugged and kissed the bear. I told her about what you do and told her that I am expecting a bear in the mail. You should see the happiness in her eyes when I told her that I got something in the mail. It was one of those days that I hope it was really her baby sister Alanna. I can just imagine if we went home that day with Alanna in a baby car-seat that she would hug and kiss her too.. but then we came home that day empty handed. It is wonderful to see though what her reaction will be.

My daughter sleeps with the bear you've sent and she said she loves the smell of it. ❤❤❤. I think she is smelling what I can't smell... who knows? maybe Alanna sent that smell to her somehow through your bear. ❤

Photo of my K.E.A.P. Bear when I received it

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Thank you Rachael

My son with the bear. All smiles~!♥

When we went to Fallsview Indoor Waterpark we checked-in at Skyline Inn Hotel and my daughter did bring the bear. Thought to share a picture with them together in a crib. ♥. Alanna would've been sleeping on that crib *bittersweet*.

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Eden's Wings - my very own handmade bracelet

Got it this week.

Sharing my Handmade Bracelet from Molly at Eden's Wings-- a symbol of healing, hope and remembrance. ❤❤❤

To Molly,
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love wearing it! ❤

 Visit Eden'sWing pages --> Facebook or Site.

"E" for Eden's 

Thank you Ethan's Flame

Thank you to Ethan's Parents-- Joy and Brian for this beautiful, personalized handmade flameless memorial candle. I was so speechless.

I have found this site last year, a few months after I lost my Alanna through another BLMama and I fell in love with the candle that she got for her son. I checked Ethan's Flame website and wanted to get a candle for my Alanna but unfortunately was not able to order right away as they only ship in US. I tried to look locally for a similar candle but unfortunately did not find anything.

Recently, I thought of my relative in US and asked her a favor to have something shipped to her address, asked her to give it to my Niece afterwards who goes to school near the Canada border. I told her that I will pick it up when we come visit her. 

My wait and our trip is all worth it!♥♥♥

Ethan's Flame can make your own special candle with your baby's name and photo. There is also a beautiful poem at the back. It comes with a flame-less candle.

Please visit their website to read about Ethan and request your very own personalized flameless candle. ♥♥♥

Again, my heartfelt thank you Joy and Brian for this amazing and awesome candle. Thank you for what you do in memory of your beautiful Ethan and for offering light and inspiration for the baby loss community in our darkest moments.♥♥♥. 

My Special Birthday Request

Yes I have a request to YOU. But I shall get to that in a moment. 

BACKGROUND:

For some of you who have known or read my blog, I lost my baby Alanna last August 19th, 2012. I have been struggling to get back to my normal me but slowly accepting that this is the new me(make sense?). I've changed and learned a lot on this journey. I've learned to smile and laugh again. I admit sometimes, I feel guilty for being happy but then someone told me that being happy doesn't mean that they are not missed or love. I want to be extra happy on my birthday.

REQUEST:

My birthday is coming up next week. I'll be a year older next week-- on February 2nd, I have one request or you may call it my birthday wish? If you are reading this post all I'm requesting is to see Alanna's name written in anyway, please take a photo of it and send it to me @ourforeverbaby@gmail.com please. It doesn't have to be in a very artistic way. Simply writing Alanna's name on your own penmanship, typing her name in computer, writing it in a wall, drawn in sand beaches,spelled out in rocks, gems, pebbles, written in chalk, OR just anywhere spelled or written. Anything works for me! (just want to see her name photos)

So pretty please... I want YOU to help me celebrate my birthday by writing my baby "Alanna's Name", take a photo and send it to me. It brings me so much happiness and comfort to see her name and know that people remember her. She is someone who lived and not just someone who died. Just think how easy that will be for you to put a smile on my face! It will make me extra happy on my birthday!

Thank you for taking the time to read this post and I am hoping to receive an email from you soon. Much Love and Respect! ♥♥♥

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Painted Alanna's Name

Thank you Kyla for the beautiful painted name of Alanna! It means so much to me to have Alanna remembered. I really love seeing her name, another one to be added to my Alanna's Name Collection. ♥♥♥